A Little Backstory!

Hi!

Pretty much stole this from my about me page, but ho hum...

I'm Heather, mother of 2 childthings and I guess surrogate to 2 cats and a dog, all of which cause me enormous amounts of stress, alongside various other things, YAY STRESS!

I have always struggled with weight, I have been on every diet going at least once, and I succeed, get bored, plateau and give up.  Everytime I seem to do that I put alllll the weight I have lost back on, plus some more. I am nothing if not consistent.   Sometimes I barely eat, other times I eat everything like my mouth is some kind of negative nutritional vortex of doom, and then.. well, we won't go there, but it's not healthy or pretty.

I started this blog today (end of July 2014) and I have not been brave enough to weigh myself for at least 3 months.   I put in my rough guestimation into the WeightWatchers site when I joined up, and what I last weighed when I peeked at the scales give a few pounds and started on my merry way.  I plan to stick to plan for a week or two, then weigh myself and start from there. A bit ass backward but hi, that's me, you'll see!

I skirt on the borders of a UK size 18 and I am too ashamed to even admit what I weigh, or what I guessed I weigh, but I will pluck up the courage to do that...I hate it, I feel fat, ugly.. all the negative things you can think about yourself, despite what others say and I am doing this to gain more confidence, feel better about myself, be healthier and live longer (although some days are testing and I think that isn't so wise!)  I am kinda pear shaped too, which I hate but oh well, you deal the cards given don't you!?   I really want to see pretty, nice clothes and fit into them without feeling like some kind of uberwhale.

I hate exercise with a passion, like REALLY.  I did join a gym once and enjoy it, didn't last long! I don't mind walking though, so that is my plan when I lose a little bit and feel better about being seen in public in walking attire.  That and my dodgy knee sometimes makes life difficult, but no pain no gain huh!  I have attempted the 30 day shred many a time and I actually enjoy it once I get into it, but getting out of nothing and into that is just hardddd.

Well thats my life story in a nutshell, I hope I stick to this, and I hope I don't bore you to death if you read this!

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